I'm Struggling

Day twenty: Share something you're struggling with right now.

Roller derby.

I've lost some passion for it. Some. I'm struggling and feel like I'm not getting any better. I know I've gotten a lot better since I started over a year ago but I feel like I've hit a plateau.

I've decided to take a break to miss it. I don't know if it's the best option but it's a last resort. I'm going to work on outdoor skating, weights and general fitness. I'll still do drills once a week rather than two unless studying gets in the way with that too.

I had this week off and I already miss it. I feel like a teenager who's missed a party. It's not an enjoyable feeling but one that I need to work through, I'm (obviously) not a teenager and derby is hard work. It's supposed to be fun though and I'm not walking away happy. That's not what I want.

In six weeks I'll be back stronger and happier.

My Embarrassing Moment.

Day ten: Most embarrassing moment(s).

Is it weird that I can't think of one big embarrassing moment. Nothing really pops into mind.

I know I've felt embarrassed many times after a night out clubbing, drinking excessively. It could be one reason why I don't like drinking much anymore. Gone are the days when I can be comfortable with forgetting what I did the night before, not that I ever should have been comfortable with that.

I always seem to do embarrassing things. I'm the person who says and does the wrong things at the worst times. I am a klutz too, always hurting myself in strange ways like breaking my nose by head butting my knee.

The key is the ability to laugh at yourself. Don't take yourself too seriously or you will become embarrassed about too much. Life is too short.

Five Blogs I Love

Day nineteen: Five of your favourite blogs and what you love about them.
You Picked a Fine Time to Leave Me Loose Wheel A derby blog by Elektra Q-Tion. There's strategy, opinion posts, good advice and awesome drawings. If I see there's a new post on my reader I always read it last as I know it'll be rad.
Good Golly Miss Holly Holly is intelligent, honest and hilarious. She's not posting as much these days as she has adorable children to look after (I hope she makes more) but when she does you know it's going to be good.
All Derby Drills If you are looking at getting fit that will help with derby or skating then this is a must read. There's a ton of nutrition, exercise, on and off skate drills, strategy and coaching advice. This blog makes me want to coach. 
Pre K and K Sharing Since I started doing activities with lufflump I've been reading a lot of pre-k and kindergarten blogs. This is one of the best I've read with a range of contributors and ideas. 
Documenting Delight Georgia is amazing. I've professed my admiration for her before on this blog and I doubt this will be the last time. Her photos, writing and lifestyle are all so interesting and lovely. Amazing.

One Moment.

Although I am posting this late, this is a moment from the ninth of May.

Day nine: A moment in your day.

Lufflump got his birthday presents from his Opa. Blue Ninja Turtle and Ninja Turtle van, his favourite. He's been asking for these for months now and was so excited.

His eyes lit up and he thanked his Opa many times.

The damn toy won't shut up so at night time he is in 'bed' on top of the TV cabinet.

Childhood Story.

Day eighteen: Tell a story from your childhood.
I don't remember a lot from my childhood. I don't know why. I remember bits and pieces but not a lot vivid.  
I do remember a lot of fun times including one vivid memory of feeding a horse. There was a beautiful friendly horse that lived in the acreage behind my childhood best friend's house. We would feed the horse vegetables but it loved biting the fence posts. Whenever the horse did that it looked like it was smiling a huge grin. We all thought it was hilarious.
Thank you smiling horse, you gave me one of a handful childhood memories.