I'm scared of so many things but most scared shitless of how I'm going to be a good parent to two children. How will I divide my time between them without one missing out? I'm so involved with lufflump especially around bed time that I just don't see how a newborn can fit in. Being an only child I don't have experience with siblings, I've never had to see my parents divide their time.
I'm scared I'll do it all wrong. I'm scared that lufflump will miss out and resent sesame. I'm scared that sesame will miss out and resent lufflump. A newborn takes up so much time and energy as does a toddler, I don't think I'll have enough energy for both. I'm scared that lufflump will be too rough and seriously hurt sesame.
Lufflump can only go to daycare twice a week so while two days will be helpful I would prefer he went an extra day just so he missed out on less. We were planning on having another child when he was in prep (4-5yrs old) not this soon. We always wanted him to be able to get attention and learn while my attention was at home on his newborn sibling. Of course that's out the window and I know (hope) I'll cope.
I'm not dreading sesame's arrival and how much it'll change our lives, I'm actually excited. Excited and scared. Looking through a toy catalogue is interesting as my excitement and fear arise simultaneously. I get so excited about buying sesame toys then I begin to worry that lufflump will steal them. I don't know how to deal with that. I know (hope) that I'll learn but that doesn't make it any less scary.
I told the mister I was scared and he suggested we buy (and I'm assuming read) a book about siblings and introducing your toddler to a new addition to the family. If you've read one that you recommend please tell me in the comments as I have NO idea.
I'll leave this ever so negative post with a positive; a belly shot or two.