Ok time to catch up on the Simplify Your Life challenge. I apologise in advance for the bombardment of these posts as I catch up. I'm quite behind as I had a break from this during my blog break too.
Week ten is all about facing fears.
Fears are normal and as I have anxiety I may have more fears than the "average" person. Although at the moment my anxiety is manageable I acknowledge I have both rational and irrational fears.
I have phobias like clowns and petrol tankers. These may be irrational but that's what phobias are meant to be aren't they? These aren't the fears to focus on though. These can continue to only rear their ugly heads when clowns or petrol tankers are around.
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I fear so much for my kids, as every parent does. I fear they'll be hurt, bullied, peer pressured, be a bully, hurt others but mostly I fear they'll be unhappy. All I want is for them to be happy in their lives. Again, these aren't the fears to focus on.
I wrote about change at my March To Your Own Beat post. Obviously change is exciting me and I appear ready but will my fears of failure hold me back again? Of course I'm scared about going forward towards my dream of doing roller derby;
What if I hate it?
What if I suck badly?
What if I don't get in this year or next year?
What if all the girls hate me?
What if I can't attend every training session?
What if I love it?
What if I am awesome?
What if I get in straight away?
What if I make a bunch of friends?
What if I can attend every training session?
If I don't try I won't know. Maybe it'll be a negative experience and if it is I can sell my gear and focus my time and attention on my family and possibly studying again. If it's a positive experience then I'll have fun exercising and playing sport.
This time I will not let fear win. I will find out what will actually happen. Determination and the need to know will rule the fear I feel.