Life With Four

I knew life would change when sesame arrived. I was scared. I didn't know if I would or could love her as much as I do lufflump. I didn't know if I could share my time between both of them fairly. I'm still scared, I still don't know if I can fairly share my time with them. I do know that I love her as much as her brother. Unconditional love, it's amazing!

Comfortable? No.

When sesame was born (on a Wednesday) lufflump stayed down the coast at my mum's house. They came back every day for a visit. In fact lufflump went to daycare the Thursday and Friday while my mum stayed with us for the day. It meant that I didn't have to worry about settling in with a newborn again AND a toddler while the mister was at work. My dad and the mister's mum actually came over the Wednesday night to help in any way they could which was more than lovely. Our support system is brilliant, we are so fortunate.

Friday night sesame and I joined lufflump at mum's house as the mister worked a double shift. It was such a big help plus mum has air-con so we all lavished in that. Early Saturday morning lufflump jumped into bed with sesame and me and he was hot. That day we got a doctor out who told us that he had Parvo disease. He suggested that we separate the two kids so that sesame doesn't get it. Mum made some phone calls to her doctor friends and it was decided that we would keep them in the same house but as separate as possible. Sesame never got sick.

The mister came down late Saturday night to help with lufflump. That boy will only take medication from his daddy and they are best friends straight after whereas with me it's on and I'm his worst enemy for hours. Sunday we decided to go home early in the day. Lufflump decided to have a massive tantrum and sesame decided she was hungry as soon as we got in the car. Oh my goodness, it was definitely a 'why do we have two kids?' moment. In fact that night was pretty rough for little miss sesame. Lufflump slept all day and night so he was ok.

Hard not to love these two!

The mister's mum came over on the Monday night to help out again as the mister had to work and lufflump was still sick. We all headed to bed early though which helped my confidence for finally being home alone with both kids. That happened the next night and was fine. We'd all been to the doctors that day, lufflump for his illness, sesame for her check up and me for mastitis. Thank goodness we are all healthy again!

Nights are easy, it's the mornings that kill me. When the mister and I are still drowsy and wishing we were asleep both lufflump and sesame are ready to tackle the world. It's a struggle especially as the mister works nights so needs a bit more sleep than I do. It's a work in progress definitely. Actually, it all is a big work in progress. Parenting that is.

Lufflump has been wonderful with sesame, he's so gentle. The only problem I've had is him almost smothering her with his cuddles. He loves her ears and her feet. They've held hands in their sleep which is beyond adorable. If she cries he puts a hand on her to comfort her saying 'shhh'. My heart shines when he says goodbye and hello to her before me though, he really loves her. When the doctor took her away to be weighed, he was so upset and wanted her to come back, so sweet! While he's been lovely to her, he has had a few solid tantrums over what appears to be nothing. Frustrating to say the least.

Lufflump loves sesame

Sesame had a day and night where she slept in five hour bulks. Oh it was bliss! Apart from the mastitis though. If only it had lasted. She went from that to sleeping wonderfully all day and night UNTIL 12am where she would scream until 5am where she would sleep and feed wonderfully again. It would be fine if we didn't have a toddler to worry about and if the mister didn't get home from work at 12am. I'll be going into more details with my post tomorrow which I'll link here once it's live.

As sesame sleeps well during the day and early night I can spend valuable time with lufflump. We play, watch movies, spend time outside, eat together and play games. I have more energy than I've had in a long time which he's benefiting from. The house is also benefiting from my energy levels. Forget nesting during pregnancy, I nest after birth. It's lucky too as we have an inspection in a couple of weeks.

This swing is so helpful!

So far so good. Times have been and are tough but the good definitely out ways the bad. All I have to do is look at my babies' faces and know that all will be ok.